a night to remember

well.... ledertreff... what can i say... what an amazing experience. it was a shame that it wasnt on the ship as usual, but still the replacement venue was really good. it was held in an old theater called Docks. really wonderful space with different rooms with different atmospheres.
The men, i saw so many gods there.... it really was unbelieveable.

and for the first time since ive been here i heard more english than german, although i really was disappointed at how so many americans and english spoke to the german staff there like they were in an english speaking country. perhaps have stayed here so long or have become so close to so many locals, that i wouldnt even dream of assuming that someone speaks normal english. im sure that the locals appreciated my attempts at speaking german.

whilst i saw so many sights at the party.. and so much fun rough play was going on, in particular 2 skinheads roughhousing each other on the dancefloor, i was absolutely appauled at the amount of indescriminate bare backing going on. it really sickened me. im no soapbox stander, and what goes on between two consenting adults is between them, but this really was unbelieveable.. so often i saw two guys just go up to each other and within moments were barebacking each other.. (and this is in the main hall..lord knows what was going on inthe darkroom)
i just cant believe that it could be so casual.. no wonder HIV is still spreading. im guessing that the people barebacking so casually must already have it.. but even so.. there are tonnes of other STDs that can still be spread...even if you have HIV already, theres Hepatitus and many others.. i mean it would only have taken a handful of people at the party to have an STD for it to have spread across half the party.

luckily i only went to the toilets near the start of the night.. already it pretty much stank.. but luckily i sweated so much i really didnt need to go again, but my australian friend that i went with, told me by halfway through the night, there was shit all over the walls.. (and when i say shit im talking literally)

it really was like being in a titan video, with sex going on all around.. but because of the indescriminate part, i actually found it not a turn on for me, although interesting to see. (sure i would do half that stuff in the privacy of home but not in front of hundreds of others)

well.. i danced the night away.. someone please remind me never to go dancing in my boots again.. man that was hard.. im thinking i got some interest shown (despite nearly everyone there being totally beautiful and built) but if i sensed it i mostly just ignored it as i wasnt going to be playing there.. and i think mostly everyone looks to play there and not to take someone home at the end of the night.... but there were some i found incredibly attractive.

can you believe my friend and i were there until closing..havent done that for years..although this was at 5am. and so then we went to an after party at S.L.U.T where even more indescriminate sex was going on in the bar. but we sat there and had some breakfast beers (a first for me) and then we went back to his hotel so that he could pack and get ready to go to the airport. how someone could go straight from a party to the airport to fly from germany to canada is beyond me.. but i guess he slept all the way.

me..well bert had gone home at 1am so i had to catch the train back to lubeck. the train left at 10am.. so you can only imagine how tired i was.... and dressed as i was from the party.... and my tshirt was wet from sweat and i must have stunk... to sit on a crowded train for an hour to lubeck... then i had to walk from the train station to berts house, through the middle of the city.. at 11am..still dressed as i was.. and trust me..i stuck out like dogs balls. but hey.. memories :)

got home..straight into shower.. sat down for 20 mins and had a ciggarette or two then lay down in bed around midday..closed the eyes, opened them again and it was 8.30pm.

well.. today is my last day in germany... and naturlich.. regen ohne ende! sind deutschland traurig aus mein abfarht? oder ist der grunte das wenn engels reisen der sonnescheint, und ich bin kein engel noch wochende?
(naturally its raining raining raining..is germany so sad that im leaving or is it that when angels travel the sun shines, and im no angel after the weekend?)

i have had many many wonderful times here in germany.. the last few months have really been an experience, and i have learned so much about germany, its people, and myself. some lessons were harsh but on the whole it was a very positive experience and i cannot wait to return next year.

bert, ich habe kein wurds fur was du hast fuer mir gemacht. ohne dich, mein urlaub so anders werden. und ich kann nicht danke genung sagen. mein zeit mit dir werden unvergessen (oh god thats so wrong i know it, but hey, you know what i mean) dem nachten an terrace, mit kerzen, und der lubecke feurmann... unglaublich. danke schatz.

if the leather party is on the ship next year, Paul and Kyle.. youre coming with me !! id suggest franka and garth also, but no women at all go to this.. its a men only thing. (not suggesting garth is a woman.. just what would be the point without franka) adam would probably be disgusted and joseph would be eaten alive and never be seen again.

und na, ich muss zu alles mein deutsche freunds und kumpels, ein grosse THOUSANDANK sagen, fuer alle euch hast zu mir geshouwn und gemacht. ich kann nicht euch vergessen, und euch hast mein urlaub wuenderschoen gemacht. danke euch fuer mir deutsche gelehren. wann man in deutschland bist, man muss deutsch sprechen!! (when you come to our country we expect you to speak english so its only fair)

so i have packed all my things.. im actually worried about the weight for my flight to america in two weeks.. so i have to investigate sending some stuff by UPS, as i think im about 5 kgs over.

tonight i take the night train from Hamburg to Zurich.. i have booked a private sleeper cabin.. so what an adventure... trying to focus on the upcoming adventures, and not the sadness of leaving germany (where i could so happily live) and this phase of my travels is vorbei.

Deutschland, ich sag nicht ade, ich bin nur aufwiedersehen sagen !