whats this? stress?

day one of Marius in town.. its neat having him here, and getting to show him sydney. god we walked until our legs were ready to fall off. started at circular quay, walked arudn the opera house, thru the botanical gardens, past domain, thru hyde park, up to taylor square, back down to city, round the city and then to st james staion to go home to have a nanna nap. was bloody freezing but nice to be outside and in the very fresh air.

havin a little stress about the living situation. kinda got no idea what the fuck im going to do. have to pack the house up and be out by 1st week in jan. have to find somewhere to live.. its not looking good to find a flat on my own as 1/ only need it for 3 to 3 and a half months.. and 2/ really cant afford the bond this month.. what with all my going away with work and having to use my own money until expenses come in at the end of the month. this plus the fact im away half the month with work and all those public holidays in between... eek

its looking more and more like i am going to have to bite the bullet and go stay at mums tiny flat with her over in randwick.. so goodbye social life and hello headaches getting to work. kinda stressing about how im going to get it all done and how im going to afford everyting, plus moving everything when i dont have a drivers licence.. so movers.. additional cost.. plus having to rent a storage place for all my furniture.. additional cost.. its just seeming so impossible..

but ya know. i refuse to let this get the better of me and ill just find a way. if i can survive 5 friggin months in non english speaking countries, and being around the globe on my own, then i can survive this. im staying hopeful and trying to push that stressy little worry out of my head.

friends blog reminded me of an old song.. and then heard this today.. kinda enjoying the new remix of it. seemed very apt for whats going thru my head at moment.