Up up and away - and all that jazz

Exciting new just to hand.

Scott's next trip (in 2 days time) is to Las Vegas, and he is taking me with him. so not only am i having a UK holiday (footnote - UK is having the worst summer ever on record) but im getting a side trip to USA. nice little surprise. Actually i have always wanted to go visit Las Vegas, as the star trek experience is there, and the closet trekker in me is dying to go see that. Scott says he will "put up with that" for me. i think ill be like posh or hilton in a handbag sale when i walk thru those doors. (erm - umm i mean, a brickie in Willy Wonkas Beer Factory)

went and had my first manicure today. ok this may not seem a signifigant event to many, but having bitten my fingernails for 37 years, they are finally in a state of normalness, as i have finally given up, and today celebrated the end of a lifetime habit. cant believe how amazingly perfect they look....and so not my fingernails. mind you it was really weird sitting there letting someone touch my fingers like that. i did find the fact that this over the top camp little ladyboy from vietnam give me a handmassage in what could only be considered oddly suggestive. i didnt know where to look. thank god scott came along to "hold my hand" so to speak.

so now i have to get myself ready for this mad dash to las vegas. scott and i have been living the normal life. its really been a test these last 3 and a bit weeks to see if we can/could live together. i think the results are in and i could defineately live with this man. no questions asked. even when he is being a pain.. lol.. i know he is going to read this. the good thing about when we disagree on a point, which is few and far between, is the way we discuss and resolve our differing points of view. i even find it cute, after the fact, at how passionate he gets when it comes to being a point about our relationship. i am constantly amazed at how just about every little thing about him just envokes such strong feelings of love within me. the way he holds himself, the way he talks or smiles, hearing the stories of his past, and past experiences, his attitudes towards just about everything, drive me absolutely crazy with desire for him. sometimes i find myself just looking at him as he goes about his day, when he doesnt know im looking, and just think to myself..wow.. is this real.. is this perfect man really mine. i never thought in a million years that the gorgeous sexy hunk, that you would see from across a room, and lust after, (you know the one, the one everyone wants to have) would in fact turn out to be thinking and feeling exactly the same about me. im not putting myself down. i know i am a good catch. its the guy that you look at and think.. oh my god, what i wouldnt do to have that, but would never imagined in a million years that he was thinking exactly the same thoughts.

do you think im smitten? i was actually thinking to myself yesterday.. when one finds something that surpasses any love you have ever know...what is more than love?

oh god, i had better go.. he is sitting across the room from me, looking at me with puppy dog eyes, and sticking his bottom lip out at me pleading for me to finish up and come give him a hug. (will he ever get enough?? god i hope not) last night we spend the night, after he had cooked me a wonderful dinner, just laying on the couch, ,listening to music, and hugging and softly kissing, and talking, for hours. i think i could spend the rest of my life like that.

oh god.. i really better get going.. hes started rubbing my leg now.. lol

Surviving alone

Yesterday, Scott had to go to work, and fly to Washington. So i am on my own to survive in the UK. It's actually nice, to have some time to bond with his flat, on my own. Ended up falling asleep on the couch watching tv.

One of his friends, nigel, is going to take me out today and show me some of the area. Nigel just got accepted to Cabin Crew for Virgin so hes very excited.

going to spend this morning tidying the flat. want him to come back to a nice tidy environment tomorrow. its kinda weird, im not feeling the huge loss that i do when we usually part, but i think its because i know he will be back by tomrrow rather than weeks. although it does now feel odd to be out of physical contact with him.

i do have to admit, i have never had a boyfriend who looks at me the way scott does. the look in his eyes whenever he looks at me, melts my heart. his very touch calms and soothes my soul. he can simply put his hand on my arm and i feel so comforted and dread to ever break the contact. when we kiss, the entire world just melts away and its like we are in a bubble, that contains just the two of us.

we spent the night before last, just sitting and talking all night. finally got to bed at 6am.

pathetic isnt it? so mushy and soppy. i think i have met the man i want to marry. eeek !!!!

anyway, best be off. need to go get ready and catch a train to worthing to meet nigel.

A long way from home

Scott and i have finally been having some time together. its heavenly bliss so far. seems so weird and yet so normal to be together, despite the fact that currently we live on the other side of the world together. Not that it ever feels that way since we usually spend several hours on the phone every day, and never seem tobe out of contact with each other during the day.

the thing is, i think i have found that elusive perfect ideal fantasy partner that i have dreamed of and sought all my life. only i never thought such a person existed and had given up on finding. im reminded of that song "i didnt know i was looking for love until i found you" as i was so not interested in a relationship when i came across scott on a impromptu internet date. so many things worked against us meeting but something above guided me to him that night and both of us have been totally smitten ever since. when i think back to the fact i almost cancelled meeting him that night, and we probablywouldnt have ever met if i did, astounds me, now i know him so well. actually, betwseen you me and the lamp post, it was love at first sight as far as he was concerned. i took a little longer to realise what was right in front of me but i was pretty smitten from day one. i broke so many of my own rules in meeting and being with him. im sure it will all make a great story some day, but for those out there sick of internet date failures.... it can happen and you justhave to kiss a lot of toads before you find your frog prince.

scott is so my fantasy, mills and boon, prince charming type, wrapped in a dominant skin head exterior. i would have to say that i love everything about him. there is not one thing i dont love. i love all that he is. nothing he does annoys me, nothing about him i would change. ok maybe except the fact he lives in the uk, btu i think if he was australian he wouldnt be who he is.

if its at all possible to die from being oversexed or from an overdose of bliss, then i am indeed in danger. gosh, the very sight of him turns me on, let alone the dirty things he does. tee hee.. but since this is G rated, ill leave it at that.

we flew on Virgin from Sydney last thursday. managed to get Upper Class from sydney to hong kong, and then premium economy from HK to london. man its a long way. you kindo f forget how far it really is until you fly it all the way through. all in all i didnt feel too bad when i got out the other end. it was of course, raining and cloudy. but i was too excited to be tired. i was finally going to see scotts home, since every time so far, he had come down to australia.

the first 2 days brought nothing but scattered rain, but it was perfect weather for us to snuggle and bond in his lair. scotts friends have been totally welcoming. 2 days ago they took us for a driving touor of the surrounding area. we ever saw Jack and Jill. who knew they were in fact 2 windmills.

spent yesterday with another friend of scotts, having lunch and exploring the gay area of brighton. and last night we went on a bit of a ghost hunt to see the headless white lady that is suppposed to haunt a church graveyard in Ditchling. no luck inthe spotting but it was a bit of fun.

tomorrow, scott must go to work and is flying to washington. bit scary having him fly to the US on 4th of july given all the crap that is going on in the world. bit scary to think they just arrested terror suspects in brisbane back in australia. news here is full of terrorist stuff. the car bomb in glasgow is 5 mins from where scotts parents live and his sister worksat the hospital in paisley where the terrorists worked. eek! what the fuck is this world coming too. what iks it all over and what is it trying to achieve. we seem to be fighting to protect a lifestyle, that we have already lost.

anyway more rants later. off to go spend more time with my partner in crime.

Qantas gets it right at last

WOW !!! this mornings breakfast on Qantas was finally something decent and worth eating. a bacon and egg muffin (YUM) and a berry and museli yoghurt! YUM! very impressed, wasnt left hungry after that breakfast. usually youre still starving after a qantas meal.

unconscious mutterings

1. Dancer ::prancer, donner und blitzen


2. Intellectual :: ineffectual


3. Direct :: dial


4. Tolerate :: evaporate


5. Post :: somehting on my blog other than these mutterings


6. Instinctive:: Love


7. Brink :: dont..push...me, coz im...close...to..the ....edge


8. Regain :: for men. say goodbye to grey hair forever


9. Repulsed ::post CPR condition


10. Distressed :: fake antique look

One Step Closer

slowly but surely taking steps closer and closer to getting my UK passport.

today i finally got my passport photo taken.

so now i only have 2 more steps to go. but the next step will be the hardest obstacle to overcome. i need to find a person of certain standing who has known me for longer than 2 years to countersign my photos. And i just dont know any Doctors, Lawyers, police persons, Magistrates, or teachers who have known me for more than 2 years. what the heck do people do when they need to get a passport and they dont know such people. i hardly ever go to a doctor, so i just use medical centres. i know a lawyer but have only known him for 8 months. GRRR !
its not like this person has to be British, an Australian Citizen will do, but im really stumped as to who to get to do this.

once i have done that, i can finally send in all the documents and ill have a British passport.

Note 8 – Section 10 – Countersignature
When you have completed the form, someone who has
known you personally for at least two years should complete
and sign Section 10. That person should be a British citizen,
other British national or Commonwealth citizen who is a
Member of Parliament, Justice of the Peace, Minister of
Religion, Bank Officer, Established Civil Servant, or
professionally qualified person, e.g. Lawyer, Engineer,
Doctor, School Teacher, Police Officer or a person of
similar standing. Procedures include a check on the
authenticity of countersignatories.

unconscious mutterings

1. Coastguard :: Baywatch


2. Buddies :: Fuck


3. Nap :: Nana


4. Groan :: at my responses


5. Sitcom :: RomZomCom


6. Reader :: Card


7. Heroes :: We can be....


8. Amazing :: Race


9. Woman ::Wonder ... wasnt Linda Carter a Hot Tomale!


10. Don’t! :: you forget about me

and yes i know.. i really need to update my blog with more than this.. im working on it.

unconscious mutterings

1. Film :: buff


2. Dragon ::heart


3. Hunger :: yearning


4. Plucked :: fucked


5. Dissolving ::resolution


6. Executive :: decision


7. Ridiculous:: a spell for banishing boggarts


8. Mist :: gorillas in the...


9. Minority ::report


10. Map :: of tassie !!

unconscious mutterings

1. Tumor :: kindergarden cop


2. Bunch :: the bradys


3. Gratitude :: appreciation


4. Feel alive :: that moment you step out of the shower or sit ona toilet seat, on those cold frosty mornings in winter


5. Connect :: docking


6. Temptation :: is all around me.... but im not succumbing


7. Brighten:: brighton ?


8. Jewelry :: piercing


9. Tough :: tonka tough


10. Harmless :: mostly

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missing in action

well world... ive been looking back at my recent posts and thought, how slack have i been writing in my blog. i guess becuase im travelling so much for work, my time at home is limited and im not getting all that i want done whilst im at home.

last week was Adelaide... and was there virtually all week.. stayed at a brilliant hotel mind you...the medina grand.

was my ex's birthday while i was down there... but he couldnt catch up. i was a bit disappointed that after 18 months together, in the 4 nights i was down there he couldnt have found 20 mins to have a coffee so i coudl wish him a happy birthday.. but then again, hes made his choice and ill just assign the appropriate priority from here on in.

this week, im home for 4 days.. oh my god, what luxury.. and then off to brisbane. for 3 days. im away from home more than a flight attendant.

scott gave me a nice surprise yesterday and is on his way down from London to Sydney. and is going to come meet me in brisbane. WOW.. will be a bit like groundhog day.

had a great weekend.. funny how you have to condense so much in to the spare days that you have at home. but managed to see everyone that i could and would want to. the great thing about king street newtown is youre bound to see all your friends out for a saturday morning shopping stroll.

sat night was pauls birthday, and we went for tapas.... a very expensive evening.. 5 people, over $400.. eeeks. mind you we did drink a bottle of red each and then got into the vodkas back at pauls.

one of his friends, who i am sure has A.D.D decided he was going to flirt with me mercilessly. trying tomake out that hes the best thing for me since slided bread, and tried to dominate me (totally forgetting that i had seen pics of him on his internet profile playing total sub.....dont you hate it when youre recognised by your profile pics)
anyway, had a ball playing with his mind and totally turning all the tables on him. everytime he tried to bark an order at me and dominate me, i turned it right back aroudn by telling him to say please or to do something, before i would agree... thus in turn totally dominating him, but he didnt catch on i was even doing it. sigh.. have to amuse myself in little ways.

but needless to say i was incredibly drunk by the time i left.. i know i spent a good hour on the phone to scott after but no friggin idea what the heck we talked about.